The biggest stressor of this week was the whole job interview craziness. Besides the fact that everyone already knew who would get the job, it really was a great opportunity for me to get some face time with the VP and just all around good experience. I knew that from the beginning. When I really dug deep to figure out why I was so opposed to applying for the exposure and good experience, despite knowin ghow it would end, it came down to IF, in a roundabout sort of way.
In our TTC/IF world, we're almost guaranteed a "no" every month. That roller coaster of emotions is taxing enough, even when you know how it's going to end. So, here I was in a similar, yet entirely different situation, and I didn't know if I could sign up for yet another guaranteed "no". I just didn't know if there was enough emotional space leftover where the IF left off.
In the end, I'm glad I applied and went through the charade. It was a worthwhile experience, even though I still have no doubt that M will get the job. I'm ok with it. And, I even ended up decide to go see Twilight on Thursday night after all! Adrenaline kept me going all day until after the interview. It was a win-win, in the end.
Should find out, officially, which of us got the job early next week. Not that it will be a surprise, but at least I won't have to wonder, even a little bit, over the Thanksgiving holiday. As much as last week was awful with all the stress and drama, at least it was ultimately short-lived!
-------------------------------------------So, this week, I'm thankful for this weekend to regroup and the Thanksgiving weekend to reconnect with family! I'm also thankful for all of you, my ICLW friends. How lucky we are that ICLW falls on Thanksgiving week! Very fitting, if you ask me!
The first half of this post has a very good intro on our story. And, here's the quick recap on what's happened since then. We've seen slight improvements in Hubby's morphology (from 0% to 2%), but the overall, everything is still pretty low. All of our bloodwork is done, including my AMH results that show borderline normal ovarian reserve. I had a hysteroscopy that revealed a uterus that would (hopefully) accept an ET wonderfully. Next up, and the last (hopefully) of the diagnostics is Hubby's 5th SA which will include DNA fragmentation testing on 11/25. Last time it took seven (!) days to get morphology results back from the lab. I'm really hoping it doesn't take that long this time, but just in case, I scheduled our follow-up consultation at the RE for 12/3.
My hope is that we'll have an official treatment plan as of a week from Thanksgiving! I'll be giving thanks for that, as well! I'm beyond ready to finally feel like we have a shot at this. We're planning on starting with some IUI cycles, despite the odds, while we save up for an IVF clinical trial that will hopefully be happening at our clinic later in 2010.
So, that's our story. Thank you for stopping by! I truly am thankful for all of you and I'm looking forward to reading all of your stories over the next few days!