Sunday, November 22, 2009

Giving Thanks for the Weekend (and ICLW)!

Well, thankfully, the weekend finally game...and, even better, I SURVIVED!  This was one of the toughest weeks I've had in awhile.  And, while the vast majority of the stressful things this week were non-IF related, I was stunned at how much IF crept it's way in.

The biggest stressor of this week was the whole job interview craziness.  Besides the fact that everyone already knew who would get the job, it really was a great opportunity for me to get some face time with the VP and just all around good experience.  I knew that from the beginning.  When I really dug deep to figure out why I was so opposed to applying for the exposure and good experience, despite knowin ghow it would end, it came down to IF, in a roundabout sort of way.

In our TTC/IF world, we're almost guaranteed a "no" every month.  That roller coaster of emotions is taxing enough, even when you know how it's going to end.  So, here I was in a similar, yet entirely different situation, and I didn't know if I could sign up for yet another guaranteed "no".  I just didn't know if there was enough emotional space leftover where the IF left off. 

In the end, I'm glad I applied and went through the charade.  It was a worthwhile experience, even though I still have no doubt that M will get the job.  I'm ok with it.  And, I even ended up decide to go see Twilight on Thursday night after all!  Adrenaline kept me going all day until after the interview.  It was a win-win, in the end.

Should find out, officially, which of us got the job early next week.  Not that it will be a surprise, but at least I won't have to wonder, even a little bit, over the Thanksgiving holiday.  As much as last week was awful with all the stress and drama, at least it was ultimately short-lived!
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So, this week, I'm thankful for this weekend to regroup and the Thanksgiving weekend to reconnect with family!  I'm also thankful for all of you, my ICLW friends.  How lucky we are that ICLW falls on Thanksgiving week!  Very fitting, if you ask me!

The first half of this post has a very good intro on our story.  And, here's the quick recap on what's happened since then.  We've seen slight improvements in Hubby's morphology (from 0% to 2%), but the overall, everything is still pretty low.  All of our bloodwork is done, including my AMH results that show borderline normal ovarian reserve.  I had a hysteroscopy that revealed a uterus that would (hopefully) accept an ET wonderfully.  Next up, and the last (hopefully) of the diagnostics is Hubby's 5th SA which will include DNA fragmentation testing on 11/25.  Last time it took seven (!) days to get morphology results back from the lab.  I'm really hoping it doesn't take that long this time, but just in case, I scheduled our follow-up consultation at the RE for 12/3. 

My hope is that we'll have an official treatment plan as of a week from Thanksgiving!  I'll be giving thanks for that, as well!  I'm beyond ready to finally feel like we have a shot at this.  We're planning on starting with some IUI cycles, despite the odds, while we save up for an IVF clinical trial that will hopefully be happening at our clinic later in 2010. 

So, that's our story.  Thank you for stopping by!  I truly am thankful for all of you and I'm looking forward to reading all of your stories over the next few days!

8 comments:

Noelle said...

I'm sorry that it was such a hard week. I think it is great that your DH's morph went up to 2%! It sounds like you have a plan in place, and that makes all of the difference. When I have a plan, I immediately feel better.

lowfatlady said...

I'm glad that your happy you went through the whole process even though that other person may get the position. Maybe they will surprise you. I hope your other tests come out well.

JC said...

I'm glad you made it and you feel good about going through with the application/interview. I get what you're saying now tha you said why you didn't want to at first. It makes since, no one wants and added "no" on top of everything else. Have a good Thankgiving!

Michelle said...

Hoping everything goes good for the 5th SA. We have our 3rd on 12/9. It can't come fast enough. I need a plan, I need definitive answers. I hope you get your plan soon.

Miriam said...

Stopping by for ICLW. I hope you get a plan made and have wonderful news for the coming year!

Krystal said...

Ugh. Work drama is the worst. I pray that your new plan will be set very soon and you'll get that sought-after BFP!

Happy ICLW!

SassyIfLady said...

Hey Lin - I'll get the receipe tonight at home for the cream cheese ball and email it over to you...it's sooo good. :-)

nh said...

I hope you get your plan sorted soon, and you can keep heading towards your BFP

ICLW

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