Thursday, September 24, 2009

Hello Cycle #7

Witchy AF found me today. The odd thing is that I could some up Cycle 6 in one word it would be "indifference." This is the first month that I didn't shed a single tear at the sight/thought of AF. And, I even managed to escape my normal pre-O crazies this cycle. All very weird...and welcome....I think.

Indifference is a weird feeling for me. I guess I rarely ever feel indifferent about anything. SO, to feel indifferent about this is especially odd. It was a welcome change of pass from the past few months, though. Until we get more encouraging SA results or move on to IUI or IVF, I hope this feeling sticks around, I think. It's just so much easier to not get my hopes up quite so much.

At the moment, if the choice is between indifference or obsession, I choose indifference. And, I have yet to find a "somewhere in between" setting!

P.S. Finally got the Disney pics uploaded last night. Hope to post some tonight or tomorrow!

5 comments:

Hope Springs said...

Sorry she found you. I think I can understand the indifference - after we had the results of DH's SA I remember almost feeling relief the following month that there was no point in symptom-spotting and getting my hopes up (although I still did a little bit - old habits die hard!).

I'm not sure I'd describe what I felt when AF showed up that month as indifference, but it was certainly different from the devastation I'd felt for so many months previously, in the days when I thought there was something to hope for.

lowfatlady said...

Sorry aunt flo showed up, but I'm glad that your feeling ok about it.

Baby Hungry said...

I am so sorry stupid AF showed up. Sending Hugs!

FET Accompli said...

I know what you mean about indifference - sometimes I find it helps stabilize our emotions.

Robin said...

Indifference is good.. ! I hope it sticks around, at least for a little while. If you're like me, your brain might be forcing you to take a break mentally for your sanity.

Good luck next cycle...
ICLW

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