Got the second SA results back today. They were the same. That's not the "crashing down" part, though it sucks.
No, the primary reason for my awful, terrible, bad day is this...15 months ago we put our house in Minnesota on the market. At some point we decided that we would need to short sale the house due to the market conditions. 2 months ago we got our first offers (2 in the same week). Monday the buyers had their inspection. Today they cancelled their offer.
Back to square one.
I was taking some small amount of solace in the fact that God was only giving us one giant life drama to deal with at a time...that we would close on the MN house and be able to focus all of our attention on the TTC drama. Not so, apparently.
I still believe that God only gives us what he know we can handle. But, he must really think that we can handle a lot...
Edited to add: Just to give the clear picture, I should say that we moved from MN for work relocation reasons, and also because the lack of light/general environment of MN was really hard on DH and his depression. Even though the MN side of the move sucks in that we can't get rid of the house even 15 months later, we've been incredibly lucky on how the TX side of things has worked out. We're happy in this new life in TX and just want to get rid of the "dead weight" that keeps us from closing the MN chapter of our lives and lets us fully move on. I guess that's why I get so upset about it.
------------------------For those of you that like to see the numbers (and so that I can record it for later), here are the 2nd SA results:
Count: 5 million (no change)
Motility: 14% (down from 22% a month ago)
Morphology: 0% normal